Tuesday, March 10, 2015

first trimester - third baby



Soooooooooo HERE WE GO! Third baby!! We are truly ecstatic. We've been "ready" and trying since October, got pregnant in November, and miscarried that baby. This is our second miscarriage and it was so very early on and to be honest I never really even "felt" pregnant. So that helped bring a closure and peace. Also, with this being the second one we've walked out I had so much more peace and knowing. I'll have to write sometime about our first and what all I learned from it.

So, praise Yahweh, we had to skip a cycle and then try again in January and we got pregnant again and here we are! Gooooood and pregnant - hallelujah!

I am always wrong with guessing my baby's genders, BUT I think this is a boy because the pregnancy has been pretty different so far than with my first two. (Then again...Nora's seemed different than Ruby's.) With the girls I was soooo so sick and wanted sugar sugar sugar and with this baby, I certainly have had several BLAH and EXHAUSTED days but as long as I stay fed with protein I don't feel SICK. Speaking of protein- I crave MEAT and salty/spices. I WANT healthy, good foods this time vs. all the sugar and junk.
I haven't worked out in, sheesh, months. I mean, a quick little HIIT here and 25 squats there but not really working out and I MISS IT. I'm going to get my butt in action this week and just do it. Did a little fun workout with Ruby today and I was so out of shape and I realized "ok Jess, back to taking care of yourself - and now baby!" The resting time of first sicky weeks was necessary but I'm feeling like it's time to get out there and start LIVING again.

This is also because it's finally finally finally finally almost SPRING. Like....there are no words.
Every year I want to run away from home during the winter months. It's the worst. But ooooooh when the sun comes back out and the temperatures start rising. It's like we're all a little closer to heaven and that makes this marm HAPPY.

STATS:
-10 weeks along
-no weight gain. haha I'm just saying that - I don't even own a scale so I don't know. When I buy one I'll -probably be like "uhhhh YES weight gain."
- been absolutely exhausted and blah and queasy here and there. But in general feel pretty darn good.



Here I am in some first trimester glory. This is my anthem right now if I wake up feeling awful and the kids need their mama I shake myself and wear my

CONSIDER THIS DIEM CARPED
tshirt.

 I actually look nice and alive here but don't be fooled. 
I've looked like this most of these past 6 weeks:

really truly if you look into her eyes you can see me at my worst first trimester moments.

See? 2-3 day old make up, feeling awful, remaining as upbeat as possible:)

the sweet iphone6 is so forgiving on my skin. it looks like it automatically edited it like WOAH  smooth this image OUT.

And that, ladies and gents, is the most boring pregnancy update. But I LOVE reading about how I felt during pregnancies to compare each time I get pregnant/what to expect, etc. 

Monday, March 2, 2015

Baby Is On The Way!

Ruby's Gift from Kevin Kiehn on Vimeo.

We are thrilled, elated, and squealing about Baby #3 joining our little tribe. I'll write soon about how this pregnancy has been (really good!) and keep updating regularly. Thank you, Yahweh, for entrusting us with another son or daughter of Yours on the earth!!

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Why I Use the Names Yahweh and Yashua instead of God and Jesus

That's a long title!

It's been in my spirit lately to teach something that is very near and dear to my heart, and that is the true names of the Christian God Yahweh and His Holy Son Yahshua.

The more I've grown to know Him, the more and more real this has become to me and I sincerely want to share from my heart.

First- let's talk about the facts. God's NAME is "Yahweh". It's not God. God is a noun, not a name. Just as you could call me woman - and you'd be right, I am a woman, but that's
#1, not my name-
and #2, so generic - there are billions of women. Which woman would you mean when talking to me?  Would capitalizing the W in woman make it more specific that you're talking to or about me? Why?

In Exodus, Moses is met by a burning bush while attending his Father-in-law Jethro's sheep. I suppose I shouldn't call it a burning bush because that's the miracle - it was consumed by fire but not burnt up at all. (A perfect picture of what the Holy Spirit can do and will do to us as we allow Him. Burn off what is not of Him yet still leave you perfect in His sight and image.)
Anyway- you know the story. God said (paraphrasing) "I've heard My people's cries, they are enslaved to the Egyptians, and I'm sending you to deliver them from Pharaoh's evil hand..."
after Moses argues and says he's not worthy and not good with words, he finally says "ok, I'll go. Who should I say sent me?"
and the Lord responds "I AM THAT I AM"
Of course - Moses didn't speak English, He spoke Hebrew, so Yahweh spoke to him in Hebrew. And Yahweh is the God of the Hebrews. So "I AM THAT I AM" is the English translation of the name that is written for us in our Bibles. But in Hebrew He actually spoke "אֶהְיֶה אֲשֶׁר אֶהְיֶהehyeh ašer ehyeh " The tetragrammaton for that name is YHWH. The english vowels "a" and "e" are put in there to make it into a name we can actually say (and use!)

Also, do you notice that in your Bible in that story of Moses in Exodus 3 where Yahweh tells Moses His name that "I AM THAT I AM" is in all caps?  Have you also noticed in your Bible that where it says LORD as it refers to Yahweh that it's always in all caps? This is because originally those weren't exact script. Originally Yahweh said His real name YAHWEH, in Hebrew, to Moses. But the translation is I AM THAT I AM in English. Every single time you see LORD in your Bible, it was originally written and said Yahweh. His awesome, mighty, original name. The name He gave Himself. Yahweh.

Ask your pastor, do some research yourself. There is no doubt it is His name. I don't have to argue that point because it's 100% proven and true. My question is - if this is known by everyone is the church/religious/spiritual ranks - WHY is everyone calling Him this generic, bland, noun "God"? Which god? What's his name?! Identify whom it is you're praising!

Secondly- Let's talk about the name Jesus. His name is Yeshua, or Yahshua (the second spelling has His Father's name YAHweh in it. YAHweh / YAHshua). Now this one for some reason really irks people. I think it's because Yahweh seems so Holy and almost afar off and "Jesus" feels so personal and close to us so to hear that's not really his name for some reason causes us to get defensive. 
But who doesn't want to know the TRUTH, considering it sets us free?
So - it boils down to this.
Again - Mary and Joseph. HEBREW people in a HEBREW culture. They spoke Hebrew. When the angel Gabriel came to Mary and told her she would have a son and his name shall be __________ let me just clue you in on something - it's going to be a Hebrew name. (and there are no J's in Hebrew) 

Christianity.about.com describes it perfectly:

"...[your friend] is correct in saying Yeshua is the Hebrew name for the Lord. It means "Yahweh [the Lord] is Salvation." The English spelling of Yeshua is “Joshua.” However, when translated from Hebrew into the Greek language, the name Yeshua becomes Iēsous. The English spelling for Iēsous is “Jesus.”

And this is how we've arrived to the name "Jesus". Translation from Hebrew (what the angel originally told Mary His name would be), to Greek, to English. I have NO IDEA why this passed in the first place because you don't translate NAMES! Names stay the same, in their own language and dialect. They are not translated! If you are listening to the news report in China and they mention President Obama, they speak Chinese the entire time until they say "Obama". They say "Obama" EXACTLY how it's pronounced originally. They don't say the Chinese word or translation of Obama. 

I don't really like going against the norm and always being different than everybody but this is a revelation to me that is very very deep and worth changing my mind for. It used to be that you were a flat out WEIRDO if you used the names Yahweh and Yahshua, (why are people so afraid of something out of the 'norm'? So often the 'norm' is completely wrong!) but fortunately more and more attention is being drawn to this truth and the names are being used much more often. 

Do I think you're wrong or bad if you use "God" and "Jesus"? Of course not! But I think, once you know the truth - you have the responsibility to make a choice. When I found this out I couldn't believe that all this time I had been led to believe by spiritual authorities my whole life that I was worshiping and praying to a Holy being whose name I didn't even know! I laugh to myself and think how patient and graceful Yahshua is and how He chooses to look past our confused, sheep-like selves as we sing out and worship His "Holy name" that we have no idea what it really is. 
I smile at what it must be like for Him. People singing their guts out to Him, but using the wrong name. Might as well just call him "Craig" 
"There is power in Your HOLY NAME CRAAAAAAAAIG!!!!" with their hands lifted high. 
And He's just seated on His holy throne like "um. It's Yahshua. My very name means Yahweh is Salvation. There's power in THAT name, but...I love ya anyway and I guess you can call me Jesus (or Craig)."

I actually have a lot more to say on this subject, like WHY names are so important and some other really cool facts of Hebrew names and meanings but I think I've exhausted you, the reader, today. Hopefully this gives you insight and gets you thinking. Ask Yahweh yourself, talk to Him - do not be afraid to open your mind and think differently than you always have. Grow! Move forward! Be willing to change - it's a beautiful journey. I pray that I never ever stop learning and digging deeper and knowing Him more and more intimately. 

May you be blessed on this Thursday afternoon!





Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Grape Festival 2014

 Last fall, we watched Charlotte's Web and Ruby fell in love with the fair scene. She has been asking to go for nine months, and we've kept saying "not yet!" but...

THEN IT WAS TIME.

She was squealing all day and couldn't wait to get there. She was SO PROUD of that armband that let her get into any ride. (A huge thank you to Apostle Todd who wanted to pay for all the children in the church to get an arm band - so amazing!!) Ruby wrote him a special thank you note:)

waiting in line, about to burst with joy



 The line to the Ferris Wheel was forever long, but some young teenagers at our church were next in line when they spotted us. They shouted "come on Ruby!!" and asked if it was okay with us. Ruby said please Mom! And Kev and I agreed and let her go. I thought she'd be nervous because she is very timid about trying risky things - NOT THIS! She'd been waiting so long for this moment and she LOVED it! She looked down from the ride and excitingly motioned our "I love you" signal to her daddy and me. It was wonderful:)
blurry but wonderful
 Nora loved the rides too! I thought some of them were a little intense for her, but she LOVED them. She's still talking about it, a week later. The "bees" that went "up up up up up!" is her recap of her favorite ride. Soooo adorable.







She was crying because it was over but gathered up a few last smiles for pictures with the Ferris Wheel. I love that girl and her attitude.


We had the best night. I'm so thankful we got to go and see Ruby shining in her happiness like that.
See you next year, Tontitown Grape Festival!

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Nora Turns Two!


Our sweet, spunky Nora Truth turned two on July 31st, 2014.
I was ecstatic and elated for her - she had the BEST day!

breakfast


Ruby and I decorated for the family party and we had SO much fun. She just kept giggling and saying "this is so fun mom! I'm having so much fun!"

getting ready

THE BIRTHDAY GIRL! Cheesing for the camera. 

Cousins River and Nora

silly, kind, cute

newest cousin Margaret Quimby was a big hit, as suspected

Ruby, the professional big sister, has a deep love and gentleness for little ones. I love that about her.


3 months old - 2 years old


Nora ADORES babies and thinks it's just so amazing to get to hold them (I agree, Nor!)


It was the sweetest, best party. We were surrounded by our two big families that I never take for granted we live near.
We did desserts only, pot-luck style. It was yummy and so EASY so we could just play and be with our birthday girl.
I can't believe my little Nora puppy is 2 YEARS old.

We love you and are proud of you, mighty Nora! Yahweh has great things ahead for you and we declare you come into agreement with what He's already laid out for your future. You make our family LAUGH and swell up with happiness and joy. You're just downright amazing, sister sue.

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY NORA TRUTH!!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

first trimester - third baby



Soooooooooo HERE WE GO! Third baby!! We are truly ecstatic. We've been "ready" and trying since October, got pregnant in November, and miscarried that baby. This is our second miscarriage and it was so very early on and to be honest I never really even "felt" pregnant. So that helped bring a closure and peace. Also, with this being the second one we've walked out I had so much more peace and knowing. I'll have to write sometime about our first and what all I learned from it.

So, praise Yahweh, we had to skip a cycle and then try again in January and we got pregnant again and here we are! Gooooood and pregnant - hallelujah!

I am always wrong with guessing my baby's genders, BUT I think this is a boy because the pregnancy has been pretty different so far than with my first two. (Then again...Nora's seemed different than Ruby's.) With the girls I was soooo so sick and wanted sugar sugar sugar and with this baby, I certainly have had several BLAH and EXHAUSTED days but as long as I stay fed with protein I don't feel SICK. Speaking of protein- I crave MEAT and salty/spices. I WANT healthy, good foods this time vs. all the sugar and junk.
I haven't worked out in, sheesh, months. I mean, a quick little HIIT here and 25 squats there but not really working out and I MISS IT. I'm going to get my butt in action this week and just do it. Did a little fun workout with Ruby today and I was so out of shape and I realized "ok Jess, back to taking care of yourself - and now baby!" The resting time of first sicky weeks was necessary but I'm feeling like it's time to get out there and start LIVING again.

This is also because it's finally finally finally finally almost SPRING. Like....there are no words.
Every year I want to run away from home during the winter months. It's the worst. But ooooooh when the sun comes back out and the temperatures start rising. It's like we're all a little closer to heaven and that makes this marm HAPPY.

STATS:
-10 weeks along
-no weight gain. haha I'm just saying that - I don't even own a scale so I don't know. When I buy one I'll -probably be like "uhhhh YES weight gain."
- been absolutely exhausted and blah and queasy here and there. But in general feel pretty darn good.



Here I am in some first trimester glory. This is my anthem right now if I wake up feeling awful and the kids need their mama I shake myself and wear my

CONSIDER THIS DIEM CARPED
tshirt.

 I actually look nice and alive here but don't be fooled. 
I've looked like this most of these past 6 weeks:

really truly if you look into her eyes you can see me at my worst first trimester moments.

See? 2-3 day old make up, feeling awful, remaining as upbeat as possible:)

the sweet iphone6 is so forgiving on my skin. it looks like it automatically edited it like WOAH  smooth this image OUT.

And that, ladies and gents, is the most boring pregnancy update. But I LOVE reading about how I felt during pregnancies to compare each time I get pregnant/what to expect, etc. 

Monday, March 2, 2015

Baby Is On The Way!

Ruby's Gift from Kevin Kiehn on Vimeo.

We are thrilled, elated, and squealing about Baby #3 joining our little tribe. I'll write soon about how this pregnancy has been (really good!) and keep updating regularly. Thank you, Yahweh, for entrusting us with another son or daughter of Yours on the earth!!

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Why I Use the Names Yahweh and Yashua instead of God and Jesus

That's a long title!

It's been in my spirit lately to teach something that is very near and dear to my heart, and that is the true names of the Christian God Yahweh and His Holy Son Yahshua.

The more I've grown to know Him, the more and more real this has become to me and I sincerely want to share from my heart.

First- let's talk about the facts. God's NAME is "Yahweh". It's not God. God is a noun, not a name. Just as you could call me woman - and you'd be right, I am a woman, but that's
#1, not my name-
and #2, so generic - there are billions of women. Which woman would you mean when talking to me?  Would capitalizing the W in woman make it more specific that you're talking to or about me? Why?

In Exodus, Moses is met by a burning bush while attending his Father-in-law Jethro's sheep. I suppose I shouldn't call it a burning bush because that's the miracle - it was consumed by fire but not burnt up at all. (A perfect picture of what the Holy Spirit can do and will do to us as we allow Him. Burn off what is not of Him yet still leave you perfect in His sight and image.)
Anyway- you know the story. God said (paraphrasing) "I've heard My people's cries, they are enslaved to the Egyptians, and I'm sending you to deliver them from Pharaoh's evil hand..."
after Moses argues and says he's not worthy and not good with words, he finally says "ok, I'll go. Who should I say sent me?"
and the Lord responds "I AM THAT I AM"
Of course - Moses didn't speak English, He spoke Hebrew, so Yahweh spoke to him in Hebrew. And Yahweh is the God of the Hebrews. So "I AM THAT I AM" is the English translation of the name that is written for us in our Bibles. But in Hebrew He actually spoke "אֶהְיֶה אֲשֶׁר אֶהְיֶהehyeh ašer ehyeh " The tetragrammaton for that name is YHWH. The english vowels "a" and "e" are put in there to make it into a name we can actually say (and use!)

Also, do you notice that in your Bible in that story of Moses in Exodus 3 where Yahweh tells Moses His name that "I AM THAT I AM" is in all caps?  Have you also noticed in your Bible that where it says LORD as it refers to Yahweh that it's always in all caps? This is because originally those weren't exact script. Originally Yahweh said His real name YAHWEH, in Hebrew, to Moses. But the translation is I AM THAT I AM in English. Every single time you see LORD in your Bible, it was originally written and said Yahweh. His awesome, mighty, original name. The name He gave Himself. Yahweh.

Ask your pastor, do some research yourself. There is no doubt it is His name. I don't have to argue that point because it's 100% proven and true. My question is - if this is known by everyone is the church/religious/spiritual ranks - WHY is everyone calling Him this generic, bland, noun "God"? Which god? What's his name?! Identify whom it is you're praising!

Secondly- Let's talk about the name Jesus. His name is Yeshua, or Yahshua (the second spelling has His Father's name YAHweh in it. YAHweh / YAHshua). Now this one for some reason really irks people. I think it's because Yahweh seems so Holy and almost afar off and "Jesus" feels so personal and close to us so to hear that's not really his name for some reason causes us to get defensive. 
But who doesn't want to know the TRUTH, considering it sets us free?
So - it boils down to this.
Again - Mary and Joseph. HEBREW people in a HEBREW culture. They spoke Hebrew. When the angel Gabriel came to Mary and told her she would have a son and his name shall be __________ let me just clue you in on something - it's going to be a Hebrew name. (and there are no J's in Hebrew) 

Christianity.about.com describes it perfectly:

"...[your friend] is correct in saying Yeshua is the Hebrew name for the Lord. It means "Yahweh [the Lord] is Salvation." The English spelling of Yeshua is “Joshua.” However, when translated from Hebrew into the Greek language, the name Yeshua becomes Iēsous. The English spelling for Iēsous is “Jesus.”

And this is how we've arrived to the name "Jesus". Translation from Hebrew (what the angel originally told Mary His name would be), to Greek, to English. I have NO IDEA why this passed in the first place because you don't translate NAMES! Names stay the same, in their own language and dialect. They are not translated! If you are listening to the news report in China and they mention President Obama, they speak Chinese the entire time until they say "Obama". They say "Obama" EXACTLY how it's pronounced originally. They don't say the Chinese word or translation of Obama. 

I don't really like going against the norm and always being different than everybody but this is a revelation to me that is very very deep and worth changing my mind for. It used to be that you were a flat out WEIRDO if you used the names Yahweh and Yahshua, (why are people so afraid of something out of the 'norm'? So often the 'norm' is completely wrong!) but fortunately more and more attention is being drawn to this truth and the names are being used much more often. 

Do I think you're wrong or bad if you use "God" and "Jesus"? Of course not! But I think, once you know the truth - you have the responsibility to make a choice. When I found this out I couldn't believe that all this time I had been led to believe by spiritual authorities my whole life that I was worshiping and praying to a Holy being whose name I didn't even know! I laugh to myself and think how patient and graceful Yahshua is and how He chooses to look past our confused, sheep-like selves as we sing out and worship His "Holy name" that we have no idea what it really is. 
I smile at what it must be like for Him. People singing their guts out to Him, but using the wrong name. Might as well just call him "Craig" 
"There is power in Your HOLY NAME CRAAAAAAAAIG!!!!" with their hands lifted high. 
And He's just seated on His holy throne like "um. It's Yahshua. My very name means Yahweh is Salvation. There's power in THAT name, but...I love ya anyway and I guess you can call me Jesus (or Craig)."

I actually have a lot more to say on this subject, like WHY names are so important and some other really cool facts of Hebrew names and meanings but I think I've exhausted you, the reader, today. Hopefully this gives you insight and gets you thinking. Ask Yahweh yourself, talk to Him - do not be afraid to open your mind and think differently than you always have. Grow! Move forward! Be willing to change - it's a beautiful journey. I pray that I never ever stop learning and digging deeper and knowing Him more and more intimately. 

May you be blessed on this Thursday afternoon!





Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Grape Festival 2014

 Last fall, we watched Charlotte's Web and Ruby fell in love with the fair scene. She has been asking to go for nine months, and we've kept saying "not yet!" but...

THEN IT WAS TIME.

She was squealing all day and couldn't wait to get there. She was SO PROUD of that armband that let her get into any ride. (A huge thank you to Apostle Todd who wanted to pay for all the children in the church to get an arm band - so amazing!!) Ruby wrote him a special thank you note:)

waiting in line, about to burst with joy



 The line to the Ferris Wheel was forever long, but some young teenagers at our church were next in line when they spotted us. They shouted "come on Ruby!!" and asked if it was okay with us. Ruby said please Mom! And Kev and I agreed and let her go. I thought she'd be nervous because she is very timid about trying risky things - NOT THIS! She'd been waiting so long for this moment and she LOVED it! She looked down from the ride and excitingly motioned our "I love you" signal to her daddy and me. It was wonderful:)
blurry but wonderful
 Nora loved the rides too! I thought some of them were a little intense for her, but she LOVED them. She's still talking about it, a week later. The "bees" that went "up up up up up!" is her recap of her favorite ride. Soooo adorable.







She was crying because it was over but gathered up a few last smiles for pictures with the Ferris Wheel. I love that girl and her attitude.


We had the best night. I'm so thankful we got to go and see Ruby shining in her happiness like that.
See you next year, Tontitown Grape Festival!

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Nora Turns Two!


Our sweet, spunky Nora Truth turned two on July 31st, 2014.
I was ecstatic and elated for her - she had the BEST day!

breakfast


Ruby and I decorated for the family party and we had SO much fun. She just kept giggling and saying "this is so fun mom! I'm having so much fun!"

getting ready

THE BIRTHDAY GIRL! Cheesing for the camera. 

Cousins River and Nora

silly, kind, cute

newest cousin Margaret Quimby was a big hit, as suspected

Ruby, the professional big sister, has a deep love and gentleness for little ones. I love that about her.


3 months old - 2 years old


Nora ADORES babies and thinks it's just so amazing to get to hold them (I agree, Nor!)


It was the sweetest, best party. We were surrounded by our two big families that I never take for granted we live near.
We did desserts only, pot-luck style. It was yummy and so EASY so we could just play and be with our birthday girl.
I can't believe my little Nora puppy is 2 YEARS old.

We love you and are proud of you, mighty Nora! Yahweh has great things ahead for you and we declare you come into agreement with what He's already laid out for your future. You make our family LAUGH and swell up with happiness and joy. You're just downright amazing, sister sue.

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY NORA TRUTH!!!